Project Detail

Is My Living in Vain

Synopsis

A meditation on the continuing history and emancipatory potential of the Black church as a space of diasporic belonging, affirmation and community organising. The film examines churches as spaces of 'infrapolitics' by exploring the sonic, political, spiritual and existential connections between specific communities.
Official Selection Black Star Film Festival 2023
Official Selection Hot Docs Festival 2023
Official Selection International Film Festival Rotterdam (IFFR) 2024

Details

Year
2023
Type of project
Shorts
Running time
40 min
Format
16mm
Director
Ufuoma Essi
Producer
Ufuoma Essi, Leah McGurk, Artina Michelle
Editor
Ufuoma Essi
Director of Photography
Cheryl Hess, Morgan Spencer
Sound
Ines Adriana

Production Status

Production Company

New Zealand, UK, France co-production

A Gasworks (UK) co-production with Te Uru Waitkere Contemporary Gallery (New Zealand), Le Magasin CNAC (Centre National d'Art Contemporain) (France)

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