Project Detail

Who's Gonna Love Me Now?

Synopsis

Saar is a gay man from a religious family in Israel. After being kicked out of his conservative kibbutz because of his sexual orientation, Saar flees to London where he enjoys a gay lifestyle denied to him in Israel. He lives the dream, but wakes up to a nightmare when he discovers that he has contracted HIV. When he breaks the news to his family, they struggle with fears and prejudices. With the support and warmth of Saar's surrogate brothers - the London Gay Men’s Chorus - he begins a reconciliation process with his biological family in Israel.
Saar finds himself torn between the two worlds and must make a decision: should he return to Israel and embrace his family once more, or stay in London and live in exile forever. Saar and the rest of the London Gay Men's Chorus provide a glorious soundtrack for this tender, honest and intimate film by acclaimed directors Barak Heymann and Tomer Heymann ('Mr. Gaga', 'Paper Dolls' and 'I Shot My Love'). Shot over several years, this documentary is about the power of forgiveness and the power that home has, no matter how far we go.
Official Selection BFI London Film Festival 2016 - Journey Strand

Details

Year
2016
Type of project
Features
Running time
84 mins
Director
Tomer Heymann, Barak Heymann, Alexander Bodin Saphir (co-director)
Producer
Tomer Heymann, Barak Heymann, Alexander Bodin Saphir
Executive Producer
Ashley Luke, Lizzie Francke
London Gay Men's Chorus Image
Courtesy of Todor Krastev

Categories

Production Status

Production Company

Israel, UK coproduction

Heymann Brothers Film (IL), Breaking Productions (UK)

Breaking Productions

11 Johns Mews
London
WC1N 2PA

Sales Company

Autlook Filmsales

Salma Abdalla
Spittelberggasse 3/14
A-1070 Vienna
Austria

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